Blood Pressure Rising

Today, I have just been so...... angry. At everything and everyone. I got to the point where I just didn't want to talk to anyone. And everyone I talked to made me angry, even when I was trying to be nice to them. They would just say stupid shit. Shit that would piss me off.

repetitive shit

Read my mind shit

plain stupid shit.

i just really needed to vent and I didn't want to take it out on somebody so writing was a good way to defuse my situation.

Well Writing and listening to some SCREAMING HARDCORE DEATH MUSIC

*head explodes*
good night

Demons - Rabbit Junk

Another reminder....

I had another nice reminder of the dream that has been haunting me for weeks... During Thanksgiving I had a Flashback of the dream which sent shivers up my spine.... I'm living everything exactly as it is telling me I am and there isn't anything I can do to change the future.... sucky... Stuck in a spiral forever...


Forever is a long time.

Too long...

Makes one wonder what the point is.

Might as well live my life to the fullest because eternity is gonna suck

A Blow to the Ego

A Blow to the Ego is the hardest to take.

It doesn't physically hurt, but it is the worst pain a person (especially a man) can endure.

Different people have different things that effect their ego.

Mine is my strength, my looks, and the things I love.

A negative comment concerning any of the three throws me into turmoil.

Today is different, however. Today it controls my mind. Depresses me. tears into my very heart and soul.

Permanent State of Energy

I feel amazing. Like I can do anything, except cardio stuff lol. Ever since I stopped running Cardio has sucked getting back into. But seriously my muscles aren't fatigued after working out and i'm totally not tired or anything.



weird

Finally

So tired but I am so happy that I finally finished that stupid thing for all my friends to see.




wooo time for a nice relaxing sleep.